I want to say sorry, I never fully understood the influence it would have raising you in mma gym. I was a young dad making decisions I hoped would never steer you in a direction that could bring harm to y\u2019all.<\/p>\n
You are ladies, I should have thought twice before strapping on the gloves and having you spar at a young age. Girls shouldn\u2019t do BJJ they said… being comfortable wearing fight shorts and a baggy shirt and eventually you asking to join the boys on the wrestling mats…<\/p>\n
I am sorry. It was never my place to guide you that way. Victims of circumstance. Former Drill Sergeant and Army Ranger I was formed to be an instructor to all my subordinates even y\u2019all.<\/p>\n
\u201cDad, I am being bullied.\u201d Was a term I never wanted to hear… Was a comment that could potentially pop the top and bring back a version of me left in war. So we trained, we sparred, we sprawled and we wrestled.<\/p>\n
It\u2019s been an honor to watch the growth, it\u2019s been a burden to witness your losses…<\/p>\n
I am not sorry for accidentally making you a person who is confident, who can protect themselves, who is willing to charge into battle.<\/p>\n
And I am not sorry for the woman that will be released into the world.<\/p>\n
I never expected to be watching my daughters wrestle. Its outside the box of what I expected when having girls.<\/p>\n
My princesses equipped with their own brawn…<\/p>\n
Dads lack of a delicate touch and complete disregard for tea parties has made a monster out of y\u2019all.<\/p>\n
Genuinely I never knew what the outcome would be raising you kids in a culture of boxing , mixed martial arts and wrestling.<\/p>\n
Now tomorrow comes another big tournament. Something you been training for and still the odds are stacked against y\u2019all.<\/p>\n
It\u2019s 12am and as the hours pass I can only think of ways to protect you from the failure that potentially awaits… Its not that I am not confident in your skills and ability, I have just been trained to prepare for the worst and hope for the best…<\/p>\n
I can\u2019t sleep. The world\u2019s deepest breath and slowest exhale\u2019s is all I have to comfort this restless night while my mind pours out concerns…<\/p>\n
Have I done my best this season. Have I given them enough time? Did I push them too hard? did i not push them enough?<\/p>\n
I know how bad you want it, and know how much harder this is going to be if you don\u2019t accomplish what your hearts set out for.<\/p>\n
I feel those moment more then you will ever know…<\/p>\n
I carry your losses, I have emotionally gathered your tears, and memorized the painful looks on your faces after hard fought battles.<\/p>\n
These moments of adversity are why I lose sleep tonight…<\/p>\n
It\u2019s healthy for you to experience….<\/p>\n
but it\u2019s hell on me…<\/p>\n
Good luck tomorrow girls…<\/p>\n
You have made this stressed out, sleepless ,scared father extremely proud!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":4290,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[2],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-4289","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-general"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/vincentroccovargas.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/02\/0CC16742-812C-4A0B-A410-DEA1A566F979-1.jpeg","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/vincentroccovargas.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4289","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/vincentroccovargas.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/vincentroccovargas.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/vincentroccovargas.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/vincentroccovargas.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=4289"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/vincentroccovargas.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4289\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":4401,"href":"https:\/\/vincentroccovargas.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4289\/revisions\/4401"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/vincentroccovargas.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/4290"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/vincentroccovargas.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=4289"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/vincentroccovargas.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=4289"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/vincentroccovargas.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=4289"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}